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Thu, 26 Nov 2009 09:52:39 -0500

I have a crush at work. :)

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Thu, 26 Nov 2009 09:50:45 -0500

It’s been a rough few months. After my strange and deluded talk with Patrick, he basically began to withdraw from me more and more to the point where I haven’t seen him in about two months yet he’s still refusing to break it off (at least say it to my face).

I’m not holding out any longer, but I wish there was some sort of closure or at least a huge fight resulting in me breaking his stuff. I kid, I kid. But seriously, this is so anticlimactic. The past year we spent going on and off and this is how it ends?

Further news, I got a new job at a very famous and large publishing house, and I had an interview at Condenast for a teen magazine. The interview went fine, but I don’t think I was chic enough for them… plus the HR woman was a bit condescending and snobby. I expect that from editors and art directors, but from HR? Besides that, the pay was extremely low and I would have had to work a million hours a week. No amount of sample sales, hanging out in the Frank Gehry designed cafeteria, walking past models or Anna Wintour, and smoozing with the writers of The New Yorker is worth that. (So long childhood dreams of working at a magazine! Maybe someday we’ll meet again.) So, for now I’m sticking with my new job at a major publishing firm. Sure we don’t get celebrities everyday at the office, it feels great to be employeed and doing something semi-awesome.

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Wed, 23 Sep 2009 00:43:56 -0400

Saturday Night

Mon, 21 Sep 2009 21:08:00 -0400

I finally had “the talk” with Patrick. It went exactly how I predicted. He said he didn’t want a serious relationship. I said I was in love with him. He said he was sorry. A lot of other things were said, and a lot of back and forth.

We ended it with, “We’ll see what happens.” Which pretty much means that I’m a fool, a stubborn fool.

Friday Night

Mon, 21 Sep 2009 21:03:00 -0400

I ran into a very irritating David with girlfriend in tow that night. I had avoided him for nearly six months, but there he was that night chatting up my friends and making unnecessary comments about me. I pretty much could have cared less. Well, until the end of the night, while I was leaving, he stops me and puts his very drunken arm on my shoulder. “Hey, I hear you’re dating a great guy now. Well, even if that doesn’t work out, you should get yourself another guy because you’re a great girl.” I said thank you, returned his arm to him, and wished him a good night without throwing up.

Later, rumor has it, he did throw up on the train, his girlfriend almost got into two fights on the train with random strangers defending her boyfriend’s “honor”, and she went to bed angry at his flirtatious behavior at the party. Of course… I could care less.

…but i had a good weekend with you anyways.

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 00:43:57 -0400

…but i had a good weekend with you anyways.

i need lots of luck.

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 00:06:22 -0400

My roommate is finally moving out. Time for an “awesome roommate” search! More like… time to panic about finding a weirdo stranger to live with.

Patrick and I are back to normal. Whatever the hell normal is… which I guess in his case, watching lots of tennis and football while ignoring me on aim. But I’m also scoring some brownie points with him brother by helping him get an internship at my previous magazine gig. Not feeling like his brother’s bitch-semi-gf is great! Now love me, damnit!

I also had a call back interview at a mega-giant publishing place today. I’m sure I blew the interview, but I hope I get the job anyways. Come on… my self-esteem needs this, and so does my bank statements.

This week is also my last week at my current job before I get laid off. Thanks jerks offs.

Why are things always happening at the same time?

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Sun, 30 Aug 2009 11:54:38 -0400

jerk

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 14:04:07 -0400

I got into a fight with him last night. K. says it’s not over until someone says it’s over. I’m not so sure about that since he left me hanging with that last line… then blew me off for the rest of the night.

Seriously? I’m holding on to this? I don’t understand why he thinks he can treat me like this.

jerk

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 14:00:50 -0400

Me: i know you're busy. you're always busy and i understand that, but i don't hear from you for like two weeks
Patrick: well what do you want to hear? i don't have anything to say, i barely have anything going on except my work and sometimes i just don't want to talk. don't try to make me feel bad cause i don't have time for you
Me: all i'm asking is for you to drop me a line from time to time

but he won’t…

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 13:57:48 -0400

but he won’t…

But now the fun is over… and so is summer. Time to be an adult. I had an interview at Harpers...

Thu, 27 Aug 2009 21:24:00 -0400

But now the fun is over… and so is summer. Time to be an adult. I had an interview at Harpers Collins today. Man, I hope I get this job. I don’t even care anymore that it might be the most boring piece of crap job ever… I need monies! And health insurance! And 401ks and a savings account!! And pretty new shoes! I need money for pretty new shoes! Play time is over. Time to be responsible.

My old boss at “The Magazine” asked me to fill in for her for a few days. So, I just...

Thu, 27 Aug 2009 21:19:53 -0400

My old boss at “The Magazine” asked me to fill in for her for a few days.

So, I just spent three days doing absolutely nothing, listening to celebrity gossip, and reading next month’s issue before it even goes to print. Oh and I got paid so well to do this.

If only this could happen every day.

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Thu, 27 Aug 2009 21:14:19 -0400

We went to the movies. He made me a sandwich. We held hands. We kissed, and we cuddled. The next...

Thu, 13 Aug 2009 22:54:12 -0400

We went to the movies. He made me a sandwich. We held hands. We kissed, and we cuddled.

The next morning he gave me the keys to his apartment.

I’m sure that means something, right?

This was great too.

Thu, 13 Aug 2009 22:47:00 -0400

This was great too.

a perfect summer film… for a fading summer.

Thu, 13 Aug 2009 22:44:38 -0400

a perfect summer film… for a fading summer.

Nothing can last forever, but it would be nice if this could last a little longer.

Mon, 10 Aug 2009 17:54:55 -0400

Nothing can last forever, but it would be nice if this could last a little longer.

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Mon, 10 Aug 2009 01:13:22 -0400

Thinking about breaking up with Patrick. I don’t know if I can deal with this right now.

Mon, 10 Aug 2009 01:12:44 -0400

Thinking about breaking up with Patrick.

I don’t know if I can deal with this right now.